I’m not sure if you have ever done something as a kid that you loved so much – only to grow older and not do it anymore. Now that you don’t do it anymore, you look back and see that you REALLY miss it and want to do it again so bad if you had the resources to.
For me, that was baseball – taking the mound of a competitive baseball game to be exact.
Well, I recently wrote a post on my page that I wanted to share with you folks here.
I was, and still am a baseball nut.
I love this game. I grew up to love the game – I grew up to play the game effectively – and I grew to be pretty darn good at it.
I recently joined the Bradford Badgers. It felt absolutely to amazing to be a part of the game once again.
Hearing the “pop” of the gloves. The “clank” of the bat. It was just baseball again.
Looking back over my life, I just can not BELIEVE that I lost something I love because of no self-esteem. You see when I was in high school, it was a transition phase for me. It was a phase where insecurities are always high, but for me – it was a bit more dramatic (at least in my head).
My freshmen year, I was told that I would be wearing hearing aids the rest of my life. If you thought eye glasses were tough to wear – try wearing hearing aids! Talk about a wake up call. I felt everyone was staring at my ears. I felt there were people trying to talk to me and I couldnt hear them. I felt completely overwhelmed and vulnerable.
I don’t blame my ears for much, but I will blame it for self-esteem issues. THEN I will blame myself for not battling through it. You see, if I had known THEN, what i know NOW – there is no doubt in my mind that I would have been able to play baseball in college – possibly semi-pro. Who knows? I will NEVER know because I let it slip. I stopped pushing. I stopped going 110%. I gave up on myself.
I realize how much i robbed myself – how much I robbed the game I loved so much. I say NEVER again will this happen in my life.
If you have done this – don’t let your self-esteem run you. RUN IT! Say NEVER AGAIN! You may not get the chance to take it back later in life..it might be too late.
At 31, my run to the big leagues is PROBABLY over – like, 1 in 1 Billion (SO YOUR SAYIN THERES A CHANCE!). I could be like THE ROOKIE and get a shot at the bigs…who knows where God is leading (HA! That would be awesome, but probably not again – there could be a ball club out there that would take someone that runs an 8.4 40 yard dash, right?. It could just be the Bradford Badgers and I am completely OK with that as well – I feel extremely blessed to have this opportunity. I get to play the game I love at a high level.
(Me breaking out of “retirement”)
For more on Self Esteem Help – check out this book below. I have included a chapter for you to read to see if it would be something you might be interested in. The link is also available by clicking the book cover.
Chapter 3 from Self Help 15: 15 ways You Can Instantly Improve Your Self Esteem
Being prepared to receive that you have been asking for is necessary for actually receiving it.
How does that work? It is a “faith without works is dead” type of thing.
You want to be more self-confident, you want to be attracting a more positive self so we need to prepare for the end state that you are trying to create.
You see the biggest mistake that is stuck on autopilot when you are in low self-esteem is that it is negative thinking and lack of positive reinforcements for future success. We might do well for a while, but later on we are EASILY sucked back into the negative self-image that we developed with low self-esteem.
The goal here is to start preparing for the better you to come through. This is a demonstration of faith on your part. Here are some ways you can prepare for that new you:
Clean up your act
I notice that when I want to set a new motion in gear, it always makes me feel better when I start by cleaning up my space at work, home and personal space that I have. Being organized and getting my act together always makes me feel instantly accomplished. An hours’ worth of work boosts my spirits, and my house, office, and personal spaces are clean.
Perhaps you haven’t wanted to even look in the mirror lately. It IS one of the most deceptive things in the universe when you are in a state of lacking self-esteem, however, we are setting in a new motion. From this day forward, that mirror will be cleaned and ready to work in your favor. You will be able to look straight into that mirror from this point forward and say – “that guy/gal in there is pretty freakin awesome!” Start your day today – and end it with a declaration right in that mirror.
Clear out your closet/dresser drawers
Make way for the new you. You are going to be working on your image and there might be some things you can get rid of. It’s time to cut ties with your over worn sweat pants, those socks with holes in them, the old track jacket from high school.
Let Go of the Past
Is there something from this period of your life that is just hanging around? Cut ties with it! Break up put you in this mess – BURN THE PICTURES and send the memories packing. Clear out your facebook.
Important message about this part. If you are cleaning out and burning things up – let it go. I say let it go because later on, when you least expect it, those memories or pictures may just magically show up again. You need to just move past it all together. Let this be a ceremony of just moving on. The burning up the past and moving forward. I can’t tell you how many times I did this for jobs, for old girlfriends, old friendships, and lost loved ones. It always worked. One last time to reflect, but it won’t affect my emotions any longer. I am bigger than that and stronger than the past. My future is so much brighter!
Look into visualization programs like this one. Visualization programs like these have helped me to use my mind to “bring the kid out” again. When we were kids, we were able to visualize and “daydream.” Sometimes that is lost when we become older and the world shows us some different plans. Take some time to check out this incredible program to help you visualize for success and bring out the kid again.